Tuesday, February 22, 2011

masih..


kau adalah milikku, tapi itu dulu
aku telah pergi meninggalkan dirimu
kerna aku tak tahan dengan sikapmu
yang tak pernah memikirkan rasa di dadaku

tapi kini ku sadar
aku masih perlukanmu
aku sesal akan semua
kini aku berharap
kau bisa kembali padaku

memang aku yang bersalah
dalam percintaan kita
oh kau, kekasih hatiku
maafkanlah aku
ku tahu ku yang bersalah
dalam percintaan kita
oh kau, kekasih hatiku
maafkan aku atas semua

Monday, February 21, 2011

aku sayangkan dia..

dia bagaikan bulan yg menerangi malam
bagai bintang yg mengindahi sekalian alam
bagai matahari yg terus senyum setiap pagi

1 2 3 ku majukan langkahku
cuba menghampirinya, cuba untuk memiliki dirinya
meski dia pernah buat ku jatuh
sampai air mataku gugur
namun aku masih tetap berdiri
tetap berdiri setia menanti

terlalu banyak ingin diluahkan
tapi cukup aku menciptakan
sebuah lagu untuknya
tandanya aku.. aku sayangkan dia

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Cerita sedih sepasang kekasih

sedih giler tu......pastikan tisu berada di sisi anda...
Tersebut al-kisah 2 insan bercinta... yg laki tu nama Razak,
yg pompuan tu nama Fatimah. Razak ni panggil fatimah ni
sebagai 'imah' je (nak kasi nampak manje le tuh). imah
ni lak panggil razak ni 'abang' je cos diorang ni dah
close, lagi pun razak ni lagi tua drpd imah 4 tahun.
Entah macam mana, diorang ni kena berpisah dlm jangka
masa 3 tahun. Razak tu kena gi UK . lama gak tuh...
Imah ni kesepian le kat Singapura.
Since dah pisah lama gak.. then imah boring dok umah sorang
...Ada lak mamat yg bernama kamarul dtg jumpa imah. mula2
imah dgn kamarul ni kawan je, kamarul ajak gi shopping, gi
makan satay, gi bowling. Entah macam mana, hati imah
ni dah terpaut lak kat kamarul nih... maka hilang la bayang2
razak drpd hati imah..

Setelah genap 3 tahun.. razak pun pulang ke singapura. Beria2 le
mamat nih nak jumpa imah. belum sempat nak call imah, razak
ternampak imah dgn kamarul tengah date kat tengah2 town.
maka berderai le jiwa raga razak.. sedih je mamat tuh...
tak lalu makan. at the same time.. imah dok jalan2...
sembang le dgn kawan2 dia.. ntah camna dia dpt tahu kamarul
tu laki org. imah pun peras..cuba nak kembali kepada razak.
Masa tu dia lom tau lagi razak ni dah balik singapura.

Razak pun memberanikan diri dia... jumpa imah. dia gi le rumah
imah. muka razak masam je.. imah tanya le apasal masam.
razak cakap.."susah lah.. aku dah tau apa yang ko buat
masa sepeninggalanku" imah terperanjat... "err bila masa
lak nih.. aku setia apa..." kata imah razak berkata...
tersedu2.. " Aku sudah tau perhubunganmu dgn dgn kamarul
..." imah terdiam... "tamat lah hubungan kita disini sahaja
..." tambah razak. Razak amik gitar kapuk yg dibeli drpd UK
tu......seraya berkata " dengarlah lagu ini..., khas untuk mu..."
razak start nyanyi sambil menatap wajah sedih imah yg sedang
menangis...

I can tell by your eyes
That you've probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky
Don't mean nothing to you
They're a mirror
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen
To my heart, ohhh, my heart

imah terdiam... masih menangis....razak sambung...

If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the colours of my heart
Blue for the fears
Black for the night's fears
The stars in the sky
Don't mean nothing to you
> They're a mirror

I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen
To my heart, ohhh, my heart

"suara razak terus mendayu2....

"My heart, oh my heart, this old heart........."
"I don't wanna to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
But if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen
to my heart, oh, my heart? My heart, oh, my heart!"

razak ulangi phrase yg sama.......imah terdiam...walaupun
air mata masih mengalir...

My heart, oh my heart, this old heart........."
"I don't wanna to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
But if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, oh, my heart?
My heart, oh, my heart!"

setelah tamat lagu yang dinyanyikan oleh razak untuk imah itu...
tiba2 mulut imah berkata ... " abang, imah nak beritahu
abang sesuatu" "katakan lah duhai imah" jawap razak dengan
suara perlahan... " err...... err..." kata imah dlm keadaan
bersalah..."katakan lah .. katakan lah imah.. abang sanggup
terima..." tambah razak...perlahan2.. imah berkata

"abang..."
"sebenarnya... imah tak paham bahasa Inggeris..."

My Sad Love Story

I am searching for love right now. I believe in true love still. I know some people don’t. Some people settle for second best. Not me. I am not going to settle and you shouldn’t either. In order to find my true love, I have to endure the stormy dating waters. I have had my share of bad dates and sad love stories, believe me. And I know we all have experienced some crazy ones. We have to keep fighting though. Fighting through all the bad to find the good. I know “the one” is out there somewhere and I will not rest until I find him.

Do you want to hear my sad love story that is going on right now in my love life? Well, it is really several stories all combined into one.

Let’s see where should I start? Should I start with my very first boyfriend that I had in first grade? (I went up to him) See I have been boy crazy for a long time. No, that is going too far back. I am not really that boy crazy though, I don’t have to have a boyfriend. I have gone around 2 years without even dating at all, I just focused on myself, my work, and family. However, I do want a boyfriend. With my work, I am never around anyone of the opposite sex, so there goes that avenue. I always try to keep my eyes open when I go out shopping. I find that I am usually the one that has to initiate the contact though, I don’t know why. I think some guys are a lot more shy nowadays, than in the past. Perhaps, it is all of that sexual harassment issues still haunting them, even when they are not at work. Or even all the feminism that is going around, where men hardly go up to women anymore. I don’t know, perhaps it is just me, I have been told I am very attractive though. What do you think? Do men just go up to women and try to sweep them off their feet like they did in the old days?

Saturday, February 5, 2011

PATUTKAH AKU KECEWA DAN HAMPA?

Wahai diari mayaku,

Hari ini aku ingin berbicara denganmu,
kerana aku sudah tidak punya upaya,
fikiranku buntu dan serabut...

Aku sungguh sedih,
sedih kerana merasakan diriku ini tidak dihargai.
Mahu saja aku meraung sekuat hati,
meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hati,
tetapi oleh kerana aku masih ada perasaan malu,
aku pendam dan simpan sahaja dalam hati...

Patutkah aku merasa kecewa dan hampa,
bila merasakan diri ini tidak dihargai?
Ini bukan sekali, tapi sudah berkali-kali,
Patutkah aku meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hati?

Atau simpan sahaja perasaan kecewa dan hampa itu,
sambil berserah sahaja pada Allah dan berdoa,
moga-moga hatiku menjadi tenang,
dan moga-moga hatiku bisa memberi kata maaf,
agar sengketa di hati tidak berpanjangan...

Tentang dia...???
Pedulikan dia...
Aku doakan moga-moga dia sedar akan perbuatan dan khilafnya...

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosaku dan berikanlah aku petunjuk,
agar aku mampu membuat keputusan yang wajar,
dan terbaik buatku dan buat kami semua...

Sebagai manusia, aku pasrah...